Damn!!! I had an iPhone......a beautiful iPhone!! && some broke ass bastard stole my shit! Ugh, words cant even eplain how fuckin angry i am. So at dis point im foneless, because my bil was really high!! && i had no idea, so my father is kinda upset with me but like my momma said "he'll get ove it" and im gonna get another fone turned on prolly today. So, i kno a couple of yall have written me on myspace sayin yall been tryna get in touch wit me, but at the time i dnt have a fone. Neway, everybody its like Christmas time!! && im gettin ready to go christmas shopping so im trna get everybody's wishlist so i can have an idea of what to get ppl. All my fam is comin down this wee for christmas, so this christmas would be great, if only i had my fone!! but i hink we'll get that taken care of this week.
ohhh and my party turned out great, check out the pictures, at www.myspace.com/billie43

Tlkn, Tlkn, Tlkn.!

ugh!!.....ok i aint updated in a min. i jus been busy tryna get everything for my party together, i jus want everything to go rite! So much stuff is being put into this, but im excited. So anyways, i've realized mess is anywhere, whether ur in it or not, its gon be some mess around yu. && its riduculus how ppl jus love to tell shit when it aint it even they place to say shit to any1. BITCHES! Keep ur fuckin mouth closed && mind ya business!!......uhhh yah jus had to get dat out, && 1 more thing, Beware of Females.
Lol well i guess in this blog i was doing a little venting. But neway my momma told "dont say anythig to people that yu dot want them to go back and tell." Which is true, people love to gossip with others and then when word gets around they're all upset but it's you shouldnt have been sittin there gossiping (dumb bitches). And whenever you're friend don't like somebody else......i wouldnt advise you to get in the middle of that because when they decide to be friends after all that animosty between them....and then you're lookin like, "damn what about all that shit you were tlkn!" So yah they stay outta people's shit it'll make yur life easier. But i kno everybody loves to tlk, but jus make sure yu can trust the people, it'll help!!

What i think about Beyonce

Iono i jus kinda wanted to put my views about beyonce. Alotta ppl got different opinions on her some say she can't sing, wear too much damn weave, and her music is stupid. Then other people absolutley adore her!! They think her music great, and dat she's a freakin goddes.
So i started listening to Beyonce when her and the original Destiny's Child No, No, No. It was so long ago, like i had the single on A TAPE, A FRIGGIN TAPE!......nobody buys tapes anymore lol. But neway then they came out with the Writing's on the Wall and i still love that album, it was pretty creative. so around dat time i heard they had problems in there group and stuff, but neways Beyonce was always in da spotlight and always the lead singer. Bottom line I've realy only liked her and her group for the lyrics. I think Beyonce is the best performer, and dat she's very pretty and she's sexy (no homo), but i dnt think that she's that great of a singer, but she's got looks, she can dance, and she can reach out to women with her lyrics. She's got all that, but she'll never be as good as Whitney Houston, Tina Turner, Janet Jackson, or my favorite Mariah Carey :]

She's pretty with black hair

I've been thinking i need to get certain peple out of my life. The kind of people who got me thinking about things i shouldn't be thinking, and going back to things i thot i was away from. I can't deal with people who are emotionally unstable, and then start to bring me down. Or anyone who thinks that im suppose to abide by there needs. Please......let me take care of my own. Also the people who like to call me and tlk about all kinda mess that they've seen or heard, ugh!!....i'm tired of that. The only person dat i really tlk about stuff like that wit is my bestfriend, cause i trust her and she trust me, and we have to laugh about every single thing together or its jus not funni lol, so yah.
Neways i'm starting with one person. For awhile i had been making excuses to other people for them, and tryna take up for them. But then i started thinkin why am i even makin excuses for them? if they put a bad taste in other peoples mouth, then so be it, i think thats when its time for them to look at themselves. No matter how much i love them, i jus can't deal with em, so I Wish Them Well :].
Next person......our relationship is a little complicated, because i don't kno if i've really trusted this person, we kinda had an off and on relationship. they was real cool, but they still jus seemed kinda fake. So neway they would call me like everyday to tell me some new stupid shit that they heard, seen, blase blase......&& my dumbass would feed into it. But i realized that i didn't really needa listen to that stuff cause not everyone's intentions are good. So note to self and anyone else who is reading don't let people call you with a bunch of mess. && i won't be answering ther e fone calls anymore, but i do Wish Her Well
So for right now those are the main ppl im booting out my life. But i do care about both of em believe me, but they're doing nothing for me, but getting me involved in there misory i cant even explain it, but like i said I Wish Them Well.

Just to show you a bit of my creativity

ok so i'm just sitting on the computer and i started singing some some random lyrics that just came to my head, and i'd never heard em before, and they didnt make sence, but the melody sounded good so i decided to turn it into a song with some lyrics that made sence i still need to make some changes but for right now this is it
Enjoy!

Love Song
I wrote him a love song
About what he’s done to me
Like when he holds me tight
His voice sends quivers down my spine
Ohhh and I can’t let go
It’s like there’s no turning back
He’s come into my life
Oh and he’s captured my soul
And if he does me bad
I just keep on holding on
And I

Chorus:
Wrote him a love song, a pretty, pretty love song
It helps me forget how he’s done me wrong
I wrote him a love song
I remember why I am love in with him
I wrote him a love song

Verse:
His touch is good
But his actions are wrong
He didn’t understand
How much what he did to me
Hurt my heart
When he took me for granted
And put a knife through my soul
She’s got eyes for him
But he’s got eyes for me
I stare at him
Wondering if he keeps things from me
But he loves me
And I love him
So I
Wrote him a love song, a pretty, pretty love song
It helps me forget how he’s done me wrong
I wrote him a love song
I remember why I am in love with him
I wrote him a love song

Bridge:
Its not always easy
To love him
I’ve found a lot of strength in myself
To move on with him
And if he takes me for granted one last time
I won’t love him
Cause there’d only be negativity towards him
And they’re won’t be a love song.
I wont……..

Write him a love song, a pretty, pretty love song
It won’t help me forget how he’s done me wrong
I wont write him a love song
I’ll forget why I am in love with him
There won’t be a love song

Goals and dreams

ok so......basically as long as i've been living, i've always said i want to sing. And i still do.......i love music. && i've devoted most of my time to it. So, neway i've been in drama classes for the past few years telling myself that i'm only doing it to break out of my shell (i'm a very shy person). It allows me to get on a stage and perform in front of people. So i figured it would help me gain the confidence to sing in front of people. It's helped plenty, but now i'm starting to think that i want to act! It's fun and you get to pretend to be this person you're not, and i'm sure that in everyones head they've pretended to be someone they're not. Anyway, i'm considering acting as a focus for my life.......but I don't kno if it's my passion. Then sometimes i want to write because i love to create stories and put them on paper.........then other times i want to own my own hair salon, then sometimes i want to be a make up artist, or a wardrobe stylist. There's so much i want to do & im still finding myself, inside and out. At the end of the day i'll do what i do best.......im not quite sure what that is yet but when i find out and i'll run with it.
By the way my favorite singer and inspiration is Mariah Carey.
She's a writer and the number 1 selling female artist, && i love her sooo much i dnt care what any1 says about her