Venting before sleeping.

sooo before i lay myself down to sleep i figured i need to updatee....
i guess i'll do a little venting cause im sure most of yu can relate to wat im goin through in some wayy, shape, or form...lol
i've heard tht wen yu die....yu review yur lifee. like, basically look at everythng you've done in yur lifee. well i've been doin a lot of life examining && im nt even dead! lol. i've wandered how my lifee has gotten where it is today......although i've grown alot over the years, sometimes i feel like those years were wasted. && thts only because i've been livin by the same routine for years && the only thng tht changes is the drama tht finds its way in my lifee. the brighter side to this is i can feel a change coming along....&& i knoww its coming soon. everythng i go through now i thnk of it as preperation for my future. i dream BIG && i knoww everythng is gnna happen for me in timee....because i put all my trust in one person && thts GOD.
sooo now wen i look at my lifee,,i thnk,,thosse years werent a waste...they were jus the begining of my lifee thts gettin ready to take off faster than a rocket. && believe me, i CANT WAIT. everythng in hindsight is sooo much clearer && i take it as a learning experience && belive me i've learned soooo much. && even now i dnt have all the answers to things tht i've experienced, bt i know there's always a clear answer for me i jus havent uncovered it yet. i always believe tht there's more than this for me.